Tuesday, February 7, 2012

i want to break free

i dont want to pretend to be happy anymore
i want to give up

i want to break free
from all this ... from pretending i'm okay
your words suffocate me
and i know that ... it could be worse

i feel as though i have no right to complain

i have no right to say anything

so I sit ... alone ... slowly breaking down...

Friday, February 3, 2012

Thursday, February 2, 2012

within us...

within each of us
there is a light
a candle
a flame
which ignites
burns and stands
within us....
igniting passion
burning desire
and standing for what we believe in. 

(We have drive, determination
Patience, strength and love. 
Love for what we do, 
Love for who we are 
Love for a person
Love for all fears
Love for all happiness
Love for life...)

Within each of us
There is something that makes us whole
Never forget that...
When talking to a stranger
You never know what the future may hold
You never know where it will take you

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

unexpected evenings

dim lite evenings
candles reflecting softly off dark wood
music to sooth you and music to move you
black and white photography covers the walls
stories told through a camera lense

Its way the place makes me smile
It's the amazing people we meet everyday
It's being open to letting others in 

I think last night we were both inspired
We each took a little of lastnight with us
To cherish and hold forever
It's not often you meet someone
Who by just talking can do so much 
Can move you so much

Last night time did not matter
Last night I felt like I was in a different world
An alternative universe 
Where nothing else mattered

We both went home with smiles and a new perspective
A new light was shone on us

Monday, January 30, 2012

...

I have always admired her...
The way she could do anything
The way she always knows exactly what to say

I have always seen my mother as superwoman 
She's done so much, she's spent her life inspiring others
She's created so much, she's spent her life building a strong family 
She's accomplished sooo much, I can finally call her Dr.Mom. 


I have tried to fall into her footsteps 
To follow her drive and passion. 


And til today ....
I thought I was close to being there...

Right now I feel as though everything is overwhelming
I'm scared that I have taken on too much...
I desperately I hope I haven't 
But I feel out of touch...out of time...

Sunday, January 29, 2012

the gift

gifts that last forever
are so hard to find...
a gift that stays static 
a gift that is never lost
and never forgotten. 

we tend to bury girts that reminds us of the past
forget about gifts
lose gifts


the greatest gift is love 
the thought of it
the simplicity
the sheer truth of love
the imperfection 
and the perfection

love makes us remember
love makes us hurt
love makes us want to forget
and love makes it all true. 

I stare blankly at the beautifully wrapped box
a silky green ribbon tied at the top
sitting on my dresser
unopened and untouched.
I feel as though everything will melt away
if I open it...the truth and the thought behind it
will be lost forever

so I leave it...sitting on my dresser
unopened and untouched
with the simple inscription on it
that I am grasping to hold onto forever
"Love You"


Saturday, January 28, 2012

the beginning.

30 days...sometimes 31 days..
one month of written words scribbled and scratched
into blank sheets of paper
Ink releasing itself onto each clean page
leaving bits of itself behind

free thoughts darting this way and that
wandering into open space
wandering into the nooks and crannies and hard to see places
until
they are captured by bright eyes and small hands
gripping a pen
collecting all the words and meanings
collecting the memories and the moments of wonder
treasuring them and showcasing them on each sheet of paper

like a child grasping at all the difficult concepts of life
the big words
the small words
and the small words with big meanings
I begin my written journey.